i am not so domestic in the domestic area. seriously. i was not so convinced about my capability. maybe coz i have lived under the same roof with my mom for so long, who happened to be a superb cook. but that has to change now. coz i am now turning into a full time wife,and like it or not i have to start learning the tricks of the trade. my ambition is not turning into a well accomplished cook who will compete in masterchef next year. just suffice that my cooking is edible and delectable to my husband's palate and is wholesome. i will try my best to enhance my skill in this area. thank god that he is a very agreeable person even on cooking style and recipes. he love simple food, so thats what i will be putting on his plate for this time. next i will try the 'intimidating' stuff. hopefully by next year, i will be able to cook rendang,make kuih lopis and so forth. for tonight, we just had a simple dinner. i made my first ever grilled herb chicken with some french baguette turned into garlic bread and some sauteed vegetables and hot lime tea. thank god, he love them.

i did it again,yeah. i know, i know. i promised to myself that i will update regularly. but its hard. with my routine, it is very very hard. whatever it is,here i am again. i changed my posting. i was placed in the blood bank. it was supposed to be easier than the previous routine i've been through. well, it partly was. but not truly easy and one to be taken lightly. i did learnt a few stuffs that i never knew. more understanding of the blood request process. more understanding of the process of recruiting a donor, and get to realized a few stuffs too, that is how diffilcult and how crucial is the task that the doctors in blood bank played, in ensuring that those 'upstairs' people get enough blood and component supply to cater for their needs in saving the lives of their patients, and at the same time, making sure that those bloods are safe to be given. its not a role that should be taken for granted. i appreciate the opportunity to learn and to understand this. in the future, if i am destined to be a specialist, i hope that i will be a well informed and are aware of others are doing, and will appreciate what they all are doing along with me in saving other peoples lives. well, thats what team spirits are, at least in my humble opinion. so, after 3 months in blood bank.i got a very pleasant suprise. i will be starting in KKM headquarters in january. again, Allah answered my prayers.He made me wait, but the wait is all worth it. He made it timely with my husband coming home. At the moment, my husband is away on business trip to the US. And i could not imagine how my life would be if i have to start earlier on in Putrajaya. i sure will manage somehow, but it must be kind of depressing too. to learn new stuffs,the road and living alone may make me go nuts. well, i have to declare that i am dependent on him, honestly. i would be lost if i dont have him in this transition trying period. but i am overjoyed too, at the prospect of finally settling down with him.so Allah definitely knows better, his timing is perfect. Thank you Allah, alhamdulillah. So now i am busy with packing and tidying up. I will be starting fresh and new.There will be new challenges but i will try my best to tackle them. I will learn new things and meet new people. But thats what life is all about. We have to move on and make the best of what we have. Dream on and make it real. As for me, my first is to see my husband tomorrow. He is currently on the plane. It must be tiring, the journey will be more than 24 hours.I hope he will be safe and sound.Cant wait to see him and make him eat keropok lekor after 2 months.I miss him so very much. Next, i want to start renovating our new home. My mind is whirling with so much ideas.But that could wait, let the boss come back first and have his rest.Then, i will start reliving the ideas to him. Owh, i cant wait.

i came back from work today and was told by abah that he just plucked his coconuts.i havent introduced my abah, havent i? abah is my retired dad who is now a fulltime dad (at least to me), and simply loves farming. he has planted for us (his 3 daughters ya, not musketeers)many many kind of fruit trees. we are just yet to reap the fruits coz they mostly arent ready to start flowering yet. whatever it is, his coconuts are precious and loved by so many, including encik tupai2 living freely in our orchard and backyard. so when he announced that he has successfully plucked two coconuts (by the way, mereka pun sudah ditebuk encik tupai2 sedikit)and they are readily in the fridge, i was overjoyed. coz i simply love the refreshing young coconuts water. and the flesh, is equally heavenly to me. and my father's coconut is just as nice.

they reminded me of my childhood though. as far as i could recall, i started having them when i was 5 yrs old. and the coconuts remind me of someone- tokyah,which is my late grandma. why so? well, when i was little, i was living abit apart from my grandma/aunts/uncleas/cousins. my parents originally worked in Kl.and while i was small, i was being taken care by my other grandma in kemaman. when i was about to start kindergarten at 5, my parents came back to terengganu and we started to live together in Chendering. the rest of my mum's family was mainly in Paloh. as far as i could remember, they lived quite far from us coz everytime my parents took us to paloh, i will fall asleep during the journey and it felt like ages. (now only i realized its just mere 30 minutes). and only then i get to know tokyah and also my cousins too. they seemed like strangers initially. (but now we are more like siblings).

the things that i could recall vividly is that tokyah has a grand rumah papan with a very nice small pondok or known affectionately as 'gerei' to us at the backyard of her house. the gerei was used for keeping al-quran and teaching the youngs of the kg as tokyah was an alquran teacher.it was also used in some special occasion like kenduri or to us, the young grandchildren, as a place to main masak2 or main perang2. in front of her house, there used to be a few coconut trees of about 20 to 30 feet high standing tall. and they are usually full of coconuts! when i came down for one of the trips, she used to ask one of his kg man to climb up the trees and get some of those delectable fruits down for us.and we will end up having them in the gerei coz the soft breeze that usually accompanied us there will make them extra nice and extra delicious.suffice to say that the juicy tender flesh did not take too long to be my favourite. in fact, i used to ask her to summon the man to get us the fruits whenever that pakcik was around. and i still remember the way i ate them, the water will be put in a large jar for the elderly to drink. the coconuts shell will be cut open into half and then i will scrape the flesh and mix in some sugar. the sweet flesh then will be eaten on its own while the water consumed separately. it was one of the best moment in my life.

now, there are still coconut trees infront of tokyah's house. but it hasnt been climbed on for quite sometime. i guess they are too tall nowadays. and the gerei is no longer there. our dear tokyah is no longer with us. she left us 1 year ago. however, this childhood memory of her will remain affectionately etched in my heart.

rest awhile from the swiss post ok. i need to gather my thoughts. well, this is light post that suddenly pops on my head. its about what i would be if i wasnt what i am today. i think i would be a......writer. yes, a writer. i have always loved writing. writing has inspired me in many ways. i found that i used to have ease on letting myself go, scribbling on a piece of paper. it was easy, just came so naturally. without having to learn formally how. but i stopped. completely stopped. coz i have lost the wealth of words. i dont know what to write for sometime, which is quite long considering that it has been years. but i would not let that stop me again this time. coz i found that the subject need not be something which is incredibly extraordinary, nor it has to be something utterly insane to get me started. what i need is something simple to get the words magically appear. and to continue weave the stories into something meaningful. that is what i hope to achieve. if i fail to entice others on reading my thought, its fine. coz for the first time, i am doing this for myself. owh, it already feels rewarding.

so here i am again. fulfilling my promise. i have always wanted to see the world. all this while, i just had a few opportunity to travel overseas and both were in developing countries.i envy my husband sometimes because he has many opportunities due to the nature of his work. he has travelled to all the continents except Europe. i got tired listening to his first hand stories about all those places he visited, so when the opportunity finally came,we decided that its time for us to fly, to places we both haven't set our foot in. so naturally, it is europe. simply because he haven't been there. the idea was for us both to feel the excitement and anticipation. when i was little, i love watching the Alam Ria Cuti Sekolah on the telly. and it so happened that one of those movies was The Sound Of Music. i could still recall vividly how captivated i was with the movie, particularly of the scene where Julie Andrews sang over the picturesque hill overlooking the valley. it was simply breathtaking, even in pictures. then and there, i vowed to myself that i will be seeing that place in real someday, when i'm all grown up. So thats why i choose to see Switzerland.to fulfill my lifelong dream. initially, we wanted to see all of the Austria Alps and Germany where the film was taken, but due to some reason, we could just do Swiss. But i never regretted the decision. Maybe someday, we will go to the other parts of alpine region with our children.who knows?

get what i mean and then, we have to see London, because simply thats where the must go in Europe for beginners like us, dont you think so? a trip to europe wont be complete if you dont set foot in london, and maybe paris. but we couldnt make time for paris too, though how magnificent it might be due to we have other things on our mind--> we went to the england's countryside. and i feel its worth the skipped paris thingy.so thats how we came to our decision. our trip was in May.it was late spring in swiss, whereas in london the spring was just blooming. the weather was still considered cold to me though. most of the time, i layer my clothes on. and sometimes, i have to put on my gloves. i know it looks weird to the locals but i'm so unable to withstand the cold. now, we started from KLIA at 8 something pm. we flew to zurich by Thai Airways and stopped by bangkok for 3 hours. it was freaking 3 hours of my life though, coz i was so sleepy , yet couldnt find a decent seat in the Suvarnabhumi Airport, plus we were worried that we might missed the plane if both of us dozed off. the gate in Bangkok was abit weird for me, coz to board the plane we have to go down through a pelantar. read more later. i will be back. in a jiffy.:)

i will be writing about the swiss and england experience. i promise. i just need to gather my memory. well, its just 1 month but i feel like its light years away. my grey matter seemed to degenerate fast these days. i am aging, no doubt about it. so before they are completely lost, i shall have to record them up here. so all are not lost forever. so when my hair really turns grey, i could tell my children and maybe my grandchildren all the stories. its a pity i couldn't remember much about my manipal days or my umrah trips now. maybe i need to recollect them too and keep them here. anyway, thats what this blog are about - my experience, past and present, apart from my inner thoughts that i need to put into perspective. well, it looks like we have to get some work done here. but i will like the process i think. so this is me signing off first with a bersemangat resolution.

before this, i always felt that my life is abit monotonous. been doing the same routine for years. its always work,work and work and not much fun. but, thats about to change now. i want a life, so i'm getting one. i shall paint the town red,blue and green, in my own way of course. meanwhile, i shall still ponder on certain issues that needs my attention, maybe major decisions are to be made that will change my life forever. but on that i will take my own sweet time. May ALLAH guide me onto light and the best for my benefit and future. Whatever to become, i hope for the best. and shall be ready to face whatever that's in store. the thing is to be positive and remains positive. life can be a rainbow after a drop of rain. i shall wait for my rainbow!