i am posted in district now, and serving the people restlessly. day in day out, i lost count of the days spent here. it has to be nearly a year. well, i have settled down finally and made a nest. i am in my comfort zone, suprisingly yes, as i did not choose to be here in the first place. i was sent away a year ago on a 3 day notice, while i was in OT , sweating for a few couple of hours assisting daycare surgery, by a mere phone call. and it was more frustrating that i received the call at 1230 noon. i cant get anything much done by mere 3 hours isnt it( the office closes at 3.30 over here on thursday). after 5 minutes of sulking and feeling depressed, i finally get around and try to make my postpone letter, which of course wont finish by then. so finally i accepted my fate rather gracefully and went about settling my transfer checklist. it was depressing. the first few months were terrible. but i survived. learnt a few things here and there that never beknownst to me to be learnt. made new friends and enemy. and for the first time really stand on my own two dainty feet. i made decisions. which matters. and they made me mature alittle bit more. i'm glad i came. and maybe this time, if i have to go, it wont be without tears either.
thetudungholics at 11:41:00 PM
i am changing the nature of my posts...there will still be goings ons on my life. but today, i have decided to come out of my shell.to reveal the true me. no more cloaks. no more invisible veils. i will show my true face, and colours in my writings.
i have decided that i have been demure enough in my writings, and i guess that has to change. i am a normal human being for god sake. i guess i am always this person who wants to have a go at everything in life, who wishes that she can reveals her wildcat side, yet she is too afraid to see her in light of what she truly is. i guess i am scared of my own self. but why should i?
i am still anonymous.
thetudungholics at 10:20:00 AM
it has been 2 year and 7 months. so many has changed. and definitely alot has happened, friendship gained and renewed, some were lost forever, love lost, a few silent tears were shed and then found again. this time i didnt shed any tears, but my heart leapt with joy.looking back the memory lane, i havent done too badly. the past years were satisfactory. but somethings may be better this year. at least, earnestly i hope so.
with the coming of a new year. i hope for a promising future for both of us and our families.yes, i am a married woman now for a change.
happy new year to u and me.
may this year bring us joy,prosperous and fruitful life together.
thetudungholics at 9:49:00 AM
I have kept to myself for two years. It may look like a mere two years. But there were so many memorable things actually has occurred. Some were the things that I felt will never happen. But it actually did. And I am grateful for the opportunity that He has granted me with. I have shed many tears, of joy and happiness, of hopelessness and gaining another again, of rejoice , of many others that cant be described here. those which were left behind will always remain at the back of my mind. Though not all I wish to remember, they will still be there in the darkness.
I remember myself a few years ago. Heartbroken to bits. My dreams shattered. I was disillusioned. It was cruel. But it opened my eyes to the real world. And I am thankful to what i tasted. Though I must say it was very bitter, I have survived and revived, and now are so much alive.
I have shed many silent tears for a lost love. But I really am thankful, for my loss was actually my gain. I am overwhelmed for all the beautiful plans he laid for me.he has a grand plan indeed. I have found the love of my life.
And it so happened that person is now my kind, gentle and warm fiancé, that supports me in every way he could and he know of. And I couldn’t describe how contented my life is now. To the person, obviously you know who you are. Thank you very much for all the wonderful things u did, for all the dreams that u endeavour to make come true, for all the love that u actually give, for all the words that u made me believe. U are really my vanilla to my root bear, the cheese to my macaroni. I love u with all my heart. And I will wait patiently for the day u come back home. Though we are thousand miles apart, I believe our hearts are entwined as one. I love u yesterday and today. I will love u more tomorrow.
this is my first declaration of love to u.
i love u.
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thetudungholics at 10:07:00 AM
alhamdulillah...it is good news after all i've been through... i have passed...:)and so do other 93 classmates of mine. its nice, this feeling of joy that we all shared. syukur ke hadrat ilahi, atas rahmat dan nikmatnya. all this happen with his will. and i would like to thank dr ain affnani jasman again, if she happened to be reading this. i do really appreciate what u have done for me, yeah, if it is not for your insightful talk, i maybe wont have made a dash for it.
and of course to mama, abah, my grandmas, adik2 and all my big family for non stop doa and prayers done for me...i seriously think, it is their doa and blessings that put me through with ALLAH's will. i love you guys all, and u all are my rocks! mama abah, thanks for having so much faith in me, when i seemed to have lost some.
and i would like to congratulate all my classmates, BATCH 7 OF MMMC, CLASS OF 2006. you guys are wonderful, esp to my colleagues, dr shida,dr shamima, dr shanti, dr shoby. oh yeah, dr vinod too...gosh, it sounded so weird with the doctorship in front of their names...hehe...and last but not least, i feel, my lecturers, they are all angels...thank you my dear teachers, for teaching me the beautiful art of medicine. and thank you for all the moral support and endless guidance...thank you, thank you....and alhamdulillah...:)
i guess i cant write much sense today...but i am just feeling so happy...being walled up in this hostel room for two months, has addled me a little bit. recaps of the past few months..i have gained and lost a few kgs. i have finish two bags of coffees within one month, its a record since i am not a coffee addict. well, turning into one. but the sad part is i am now resistance to its anti-sleeping effect. and i have had god only knows sleepless nights..but thank god, it is all over...alhamdulillah.
thetudungholics at 7:30:00 AM
3 days more to go. yet i am not ready yet, to battle, to fight, to win.
but, mama said, i will not be ready forever, if i dont go for this one. so she asked me to do the best and try my luck. i will. i wont turn back anymore. and thanks ain for giving me the opening eye talk..i really appreciate it.
ya allah ya tuhanku, aku hambamu yang lemah, mengharapkan kasih sayangmu. perkuatkanlah keazamanku, permudahkanlah segala urusanku, hilangkanlah kebuntuan dan timbulkanlah ilham, lindungilah aku dari dizalimi.
aku hanya ingin menjadi seorang doktor yang selamat, dan mula berbakti pada akhir februari ini. amin.
thetudungholics at 5:09:00 PM
what i did on the new year's eve? I went out for dinner with shida and shanti, thinking that we are watching BAIK PUNYA CILOK afterwards. but, it just happened that we dont have jodoh with the movie,as i cancelled the reservations afterwards due to some misunderstanding. instead, we watched pride and prejudice modern version showing at 11.45 pm. i know tat its so late. but, anyway we did watched it. the movie was so-so. i have watched the older version in black and white, and i cant help comparing them and liking the former better. however, keira knightley do look so good in tat movie. well, but she always did in amy movie she starred. but, i feel tat her acting is not so convincing this time. the cinematography is quite ok.howverer still,the movie isn't just right somewhere, but i could not pinpoint what is wrong. i guess i am not a good critics after all.
the conversation during dinner was all about manipal days. i remember vowing of not missing manipal those days, but now, i cant help from thinking how easy my life actually looks those dates. and i miss the food, most of all. i miss the masala dosa, bombay toast in shantala. i miss the mango juice,musambi juice, chicken steam rice,mushroom manchurian in dollops, i miss the bony chickens and peach tea in planet cafe, i miss the sizzling brownies in saiba, i miss the mango icecream with mango sauce in temple square, i miss the egg and fish sambal in the mess, and also pav bhaji and tonnes of curds in bq mess. i miss chicken maryland in valleyview hotel. i miss the cheap yet so gooood hot chocolate and cappucino in front of the central library annex. basically, i miss everything. i miss the days i went shopping in udupi for silk sarees everytime was about to go back home. i miss shopping in mega saree stores in madras and bangalore. i miss going shopping for punjabi tops. i miss the unique smell of air whenever i pass by udupi, the mixture of spices and dont know what. i miss being so carefree and jovial when i was there. it was heavenly for a student. yet, i realise it too late. how i wish i can be in manipal, once more. sigh.
thetudungholics at 7:12:00 PM
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